I heard I could get paid for sex. I haven't had a boyfriend in over two years, and I work at a general store for girls, so I don't meet many men. I can't even remember the last time I had sex, and I don't really miss penises anymore. Still, I masturbate two or three times a week. It's like regular exercise, a habit. I'm not sure if it's actually a sexual desire. But this time, I thought I'd take this opportunity to get a male actor to make me feel good, and he asked me to masturbate for him. LOL. I've never even shown anyone how I masturbate! Doing it in public is so embarrassing! It might even be more embarrassing than having sex. But having sex for the first time in a while felt so good I wondered if it ever felt this good. I'm in trouble. I'd been satisfied with masturbation for a while, but starting tomorrow, I'm starting to feel unsatisfied again.