As time passes, I'm becoming more sensitive to my own changes. Thanks to my privileged career as a model, I used to be overflowing with confidence. Every day was filled with brilliance, and the way the men around me treated me and responded to me was so satisfying that it was palpable. But the glorious times don't stop. Before I knew it, I was already in my 30s. It may sound exaggerated, but I still can't believe I'm already in my 30s. At the same time, I've noticed that my precious self-confidence is slowly fading. "Whoa...was I back then...?" I'm scared that one day I'll be crushed by this anxiety. I have a boyfriend. We've been together for way too long. I think he understands me well. But because we're so close, I think there's more that he doesn't understand me. To be honest...I'm lonely. As a woman, I'm lonely. I know I can't go back to my younger self. But as a woman, I want to regain my feelings, or rather, my confidence. So please. Hold me today.