Shabby confessed to me that he had always had a secret desire since childhood - "I want to become a girl" - and that he was determined to make that dream come true. Shabby, possessing an almost perfect beauty nestled between the genders of male and female, felt the loneliness of no longer being a boy, but also the joy of the birth of a "girl"... Torn between conflicting feelings, and still holding on to my feelings for her, I offered to do one last photo shoot. Excited by the ocean view, acting innocently spoiled, munching on delicious food... For the first time on our trip just the two of us, we saw Shabby in her most natural, everyday clothes. Just before realizing his dream of being "reborn as a woman," I took an overnight trip to a hot spring, filled with desire and pseudo-romance, with Shabby torn between anticipation and anxiety.