I've always disliked men. At the same time, I felt inferior about never having dated a man. I was worried that I'd remain a virgin forever, so two years ago I started dating someone I'd become friends with on social media. That was also my first sexual experience. But it just didn't feel right... I just couldn't quite put my finger on what dating and sex were supposed to mean. I had another relationship, but things didn't work out with that person either... and I ended up breaking up with him. Now, when it comes to sex, I only masturbate occasionally. I'm worried that having sex with the next person I date will hurt, so I can't move forward. Honestly, I'm starting to lose confidence and wonder if there's something wrong with me that's keeping me from feeling good. That's why I applied to be filmed by a professional male actor. I want to feel good. That's all I want.