This year marks my ninth year of marriage. I now teach violin to about 15 students at home. I no longer expect anything sexual from my husband. But I also have no desire to cheat on him. I often see news reports of online dating sites being involved in crimes, and I hesitated to look for a casual sex partner, knowing the risks. So I thought about adult videos. I thought I'd feel more secure if I left it to the professionals. I did some research. In the end, I'm glad I came. I was so excited to finally realize the things I always fantasize about when masturbating, the things I'd always wanted to try. When a big man's penis entered me, my insides became hot and my love juices began to flow. "That big penis feels so good..." I couldn't help but blurt out words. As we faced each other, seeing him inside me made me even more excited, my mind went blank, and I couldn't think straight. The sounds of my vagina sloshing and slurping, my heavy breathing, and the sounds of my vagina popping and smacking filled the room. It was an exciting experience, completely different from my usual, peaceful life. Suddenly... the faces of my students came to mind. I'm sorry I'm such a lewd teacher.